My family’s going through a very difficult time lately and I admit, it’s already affecting me and my focus for the upcoming board exams. Hence, my (bad) preboard grades. Ever since review classes started, I haven’t been able to study in the manner I used to. I do not attribute it entirely to my personal-slash-family matters, but it’s one major factor. I also recognize the fact that October is already fast approaching and therefore, I MUST focus. But how can I effing focus if I do not know what to prioritize? My family tells me to just concentrate on my studies, but I really can’t. I pretty much know that they are just being (or pretending to be) strong for the rest of us.

My whole life’s slowly becoming a mess (charr). Or my mind, at least. I’m not being emo here, I just.. want to let this thing out somehow. I am praying that God would allow me to be a CPA by October of this year. But I am praying harder that He would grant me and my family the strength that we need right now. I hope it’s not too much to ask for, ‘cause I don’t know what to do or what to pray for anymore.

Even this blog entry is so..disassembled. Very much speaks about how my mind is sooo effed up right now.